There are hardly ever days like this
Maybe we never came as close as I felt we did
At least the sun felt good on my back
each time you said the things you said.
Or what it really meant when the silence sliced the wind
and we swallowed the words we were longing for,
not knowing where to go from here.
I felt you had the patience to want to know,
had the patience to try to unfold whatever fears I face with each breath I hold.
Leaning in to kiss your forehead
although I didn't know where exactly the tears were coming from,
whether they were even meant to show.
When you said that I was hard to read, I told you it was hard for me
to open myself uninhibitedly.
but its harder to let go when I've come so close.
This uncertainty is tearing me apart from the inside out.
Risking too much isn't worth it again. Or maybe it's the key.
Maybe we're too quick to jump to conclusions we've drawn from the past, both you and me.
And I've tried to read you, and things shift so quickly, and this is one thing that hasn't been indifferent to me. But certain patterns remind me of ones i've seen before. Stuttered words, downcast eyes and the looks your heavenly face wore. Place your heart into these hands of mine and I swear i'll be there, I might have said.
No number of days will ever erase the pain that I feel when I think of us.
No number of years will ever explain why you're too goddamn afraid.
And drowning out the noise has become the central focus of this life
Finding back to you hasn't made shit easier, hasn't made things right.
Dissected, sewn shut, the scalpel's routine.
Tightening the stitches, wiping it clean.
the lies we believe about love
the blood we draw for a taste of sin
the faith we put in constructs
the tears we shed for abstraction
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